Hey. So, this is awkward. I don’t even know what to say. This has been the worst couple of months for blogging that I have ever experienced and I just cannot make excuses for why I’ve been so absent because I REALLY don’t have any.
I’m the worst.
So, update on life. I am a douchebag.
No, okay. So we went to Prom and it was the most terrible experience because the people I went with weren’t having a good time and so we left early and then other shit occurred and now one of my friends and I are fighting over the most ridiculous thing ever.
I want to punch her in the face for being stupid, but I love her and I understand that she’s not being stupid as much as just having a hard time and overreacting about little things. I just wish that it wouldn’t tear our friendship apart the way it does every fucking time.
I’m kind of just tired of sticking around for people that won’t stick around for me but, until I have the money to move away, I can’t exactly pull out an ‘out with the old, in with the new’ attitude. There is nothing new here. Everything and everyone…exactly the same.
So I’m going a different route because I am trying to be a peaceful human being and just love everyone, regardless of how difficult it is for me to do so.
I want people to be happy, but I don’t want to put my personal well-being on the line anymore, so I’m not going to. I’m going to give what I can and let the people I care about know that I am a person, not a resource.
So that’s my angry rant of the day.