Monthly Archives: December 2012

2012 in Review; A WordPress Perspective with a Hint of Telea

Ohkay, so it’s not much, but it’s home, and it’s a lot more than I could have ever expected. And sure, I didn’t get a ton of followers, and sure, my page hasn’t been viewed as much as a lot of other people’s, but it’s a passion of mine, and I’m really glad I started this.

God, I have grown so much during the time I’ve had this blog. I remember being the girl who was just kind of off-center and not knowing things about anything. I remember being the girl that was completely lost and feeling so much rage and resentment. I remember being the completely happy, peppy girl who had nothing interesting to talk about, but tried anyway.

I remember everything save for a few hazy nights of making bad decisions that I’ve chosen not to regret. I’ve come a long way, and I can only hope that I’ll continue to learn and grow in 2013. It has been a really, really hard year for me. And I know that’s what every teenager on the cusp of ‘Adulthood’ says. I know it’s not easy, but to quote a song that I don’t know the name of by a band I don’t listen to much:

Nobody said it was easy, nobody said it would be this hard.

And you know how when you are the person you are, you remember all of the people you were, but you can’t put into words who you are now and sometimes it’s even hard to talk about who you want to be? That’s me right now. This does happen to be my moment of reality with you guys where instead of just hinting in a comedic way that I’m lost, I’m telling you.

But it’s okay, because we all get lost sometimes and that’s part of what makes life so poetic. Or maybe I just spend way too much time on Tumblr. There’s a part of me that just wants to address every harsh word and every time I cried for something that wasn’t real. Something that I wish was real.

There’s a part of me that wants to forget that this year even happened; let it cease to exist. But the biggest part of me wants to cry one more time, and for the tears to be happy and sad and bittersweet, because guys: Life is way too short to do anything but live it. And that means crying for everything sometimes.

And god, I just sound like one of those stupid romantic books where the main character not only discovers love, but also themselves. It’s not like that. I still have no idea who I am or what I’m looking for. I know what I’m passionate about, and I know how I feel, but I start to wonder if anyone really knows who they are.

I guess we’ll get back to the topic now, though. Tonight is my breakdown. Tonight is my ‘let it all out’. Tonight is the second-to-last night of 2012, and I have to figure out all of the sad things before I spend the last day of the year the world was supposed to end rejoicing. I need to thank all of you. I know that I do it a lot, but really, really…there are so many things I wouldn’t have figured out without you.

Even if you weren’t actually there and actively supporting me…I always felt better knowing that at least one person was reading and feeling for me. Yeah, I like attention. I was happy to know that I made someone laugh, or maybe even cry. I was so relieved that the story of my life this past year and then some (no matter how warped, anti-poetic, or comedically twisted it was) was one that you wanted to know about.

So, without further ado, here is my year of 2012, the ups and the downs, the end of the world and the start of a new one. This will be my last post this year, and I really hope it’s a good ender, because the end of one story  is just as meaningful as the beginning of another.

This year is ending, but I am not (hopefully). Happy New Year to all of you. May your bodies stay warm, your stomachs full, your minds thoughtful, and your hearts open. I love you.


The stats helper monkeys prepared a 2012 annual report for this blog.


Here’s an excerpt:

600 people reached the top of Mt. Everest in 2012. This blog got about 4,900 views in 2012. If every person who reached the top of Mt. Everest viewed this blog, it would have taken 8 years to get that many views.

Click here to see the complete report.


Merry Christmas to All and To All a Good…Morning?

Yes, I do realize that it is four thirty in the morning on Christmas, and it’s even more of a shame that I’m not even up this early for the presents…which I have none of. Here’s the deal. I can’t tell if I’ve actually been slacking on you guys or just feeling guilty, so my sheer confusion over the subject woke me up so early on this fine morning and forced me to post a blog.

Or at least, that’s the story I’m going to tell you to make you feel more loved.

A lot has been going on in my life, but we have no time for such little things, so we’ll just do a quick overview and then get down to the actual topic of the day, which I have, in fact, been pretty sketchy on of late.

My week in thirty words or less: Parties, End of the World, Bowling, Weddings, Sleeping, Eating, Cleaning, Holidays, Presents, No Girlfriend, No Snuggles, Sadness, Insomnia, Butts, Old Friends, More Bowling, Spanish Stress, End of Semester, Movies.


Moving on, the topic of the day is…

Inappropriate Ways To Spread Holiday Cheer.

1. The ‘Every Holiday is Christmas’. This, my dear friends, is a serious problem. Here are the steps of pulling off this spreading of holiday cheer.

  • Hang your Christmas lights two weeks before Halloween
  • Instead of using appropriate ‘Happy Holidays’ cards, send out your Holiday cards with a little style. Use phrases such as: ‘Christmas is the only Holiday Jesus Died for’, “You’re a sinner if you don’t believe in Santa’, and ‘If you don’t believe in the spirit of Christmas, you must worship the Devil.’ This is sure to put your friends and relatives in a joyous holiday mood that will cause your entire tri-state area to become just a little brighter as they storm the streets and set fire to everything you love.
  • Simply state that Holidays such as Hanukkah are wrong and terrible and try to get everyone to buy a Christmas tree instead.

2. The ‘Remember that Jesus Died for Your Sins so Donate to this Local Charity’. This one really throws me off. There are people that take their time to sit outside stores in the freezing cold to ask for donations out of the good of their heart. However, as if it wasn’t already enough that they’re making you feel bad for being better people than they are, they also give you a horrible glare if you pass by without dropping a few coins into their collection buckets.

3.  The ‘All I Want for Christmas is You…and a Sports Car.’ Something that really bugs the shit out of me during the holiday season is that we have devoted it more to the giving and receiving of presents rather than the opportunity to spend time with our friends and family. It has gotten to a point where you are almost forced to feel like a bad person if you haven’t purchased a gift for the people you care about, regardless of the fact that you could be one short paycheck away from living on the streets. Can we please just accept the fact that it’s a beautiful thing just to get to spend time with the people we love and not be so obsessed with what we get out of the experience?

4. The ‘Let’s Christmas Carol Every Night for a Week’. Oh my Gooooddddddd. We get it. You’re here to spread holiday cheer. That doesn’t mean I need to be plugging my headphones into my TV and blasting the sound just so that I can hear the Packer game over your incessant noise. Yes, we love the fact that you get joy out of going out into the cold and singing songs to cheer up the neighborhood, but come on. Luckily for one Telea, there aren’t really carolers where she lives, and she’s just complaining.

The ‘My Decorations are More Extravagant Than Yours.’ Remind me of how much I don’t care. My Holiday Decorations may consist of a plastic bag tied to a pitchfork next to some burned out lights that I found in the dumpster outside Savers, it doesn’t matter. The fact that so many people go so all out to spread their holiday cheer by so completely covering their houses with lights that it appears that all of Santa’s Elves literally took three festive shits each on their yards is disgusting. Furthermore, it isn’t energy efficient, and we are burning down mountain-tops by promoting this behaviour, regardless of ‘how cool it looks’.

I’m not trying to Scrooge out your Holidays, no. I am simply stating that the holidays shouldn’t be about gifts you get, what holiday you celebrate, what things you do for Jesus or any other deity, or the amount of lights you have plastered to your porch. The Holidays are about spending time with the people that mean the most to you and eating a lot of delicious food that you worked together to make. The food part is important; don’t forget the food.

Question of the Day: How do you celebrate the Holidays and is there any tradition you or your family has that differs from traditional holiday cheer?

Love ya!

The End of the World as We Know it and A Blog of the Year 2012 Award

(Note: If you don’t want to read about the award, there is still other ‘regular’ content beneath all the award ceremony stuff. Thanks!)

So guys, I am proud to have the great honor of being nominated for this awesome award by Bpshielsy! Thank you so much for this honor. Usually I don’t accept blog awards, but hey, it’s the end of the world today, and I’m still kicking, so I thought I would accept this one.

The “rules” for picking up your award are simple:

1 Select the blog(s) you think deserve the ‘Blog of the Year 2012’ Award

2 Write a blog post and tell us about the blog(s) you have chosen – there’s no minimum or maximum number of blogs required – and ‘present’ them with their award.

3 Please include a link back to this page ‘Blog of the Year 2012’ Award –  and include these ‘rules’ in your post (please don’t alter the rules or the badges!)

4 Let the blog(s) you have chosen know that you have given them this award and share the ‘rules’ with them

5 You can now also join our Facebook group – click ‘like’ on this page ‘Blog of the Year 2012’ Award Facebook group and then you can share your blog with an even wider audience

6 As a winner of the award – please add a link back to the blog that presented you with the award – and then proudly display the award on your blog and sidebar … and start collecting stars…

Yes – that’s right – there are stars to collect!

Unlike other awards which you can only add to your blog once – this award is different!

When you begin you will receive the ‘1 star’ award – and every time you are given the award by another blog – you can add another star!

There are a total of 6 stars to collect.

Which means that you can check out your favourite blogs – and even if they have already been given the award by someone else – you can still bestow it on them again and help them to reach the maximum 6 stars!

The blogs I nominate are:

1. Thee Truth Is – Mostly because I only have a couple of blogs I follow with every post, and she’s one of them. She’s such a strong, brave, wonderful human being, and I am proud to present her with this award, whether she accepts it or not. We have been friends since almost the beginning of my little blog, back before I knew what I was doing (Hell, I still don’t know what I’m doing.

2. Bpshielsy – Ahh, the person who nominated me in the first place. You, dear, deserve three stars instead of just two. You have motivated me, given me wonderful ideas, and inspired me. This is a wonderful blog about Living with Bipolar Disorder. I love how it has so much information and reference if you want to know about Bipolar Disorder, along with places you can go for help. I also love how you tend to stay positive, and I can’t exactly hate on your excellent musical tastes, either.

Thank you so much again for this award. I shall cherish it, truly.


Well, onto the normal blog, which shall consist of discussions of the end of the world. This was something that made a lot of people nervous, and a lot of people just laughed. I say that every day is the end of the world as we know it, if we are willing to look at it in a different way.

After all, though it’s true that ‘it’s a small world after all’ , there are still many things to see and do, which is what I wish I could commit my life to doing. I wish that I had the funding to travel the world, hear people’s stories, try to inspire people. I want to see what’s out there, and I know that’s super cliche and every person who owns a Tumblr account is going to say the exact same thing…

But I’ve been dreaming of this since I was but a child. I’ve always wanted to just get up and go. Sitting long days in school, I would daydream about hitchhiking through Canada and all of the different ways I could get horrible people not to rape me while I was at it. I drew up plans, wrote in a notebook for weeks on end. I was devoted. Still am devoted.

I guess that’s one of my main motivations for having a Youtube Channel and blogging and such. I see so many bloggers/vloggers getting recognition for what they do, and funding to go places and see and do things. I want that to be my life more than anything, and yes, I understand that’s going to take a lot of work. I’ll also have to put it to the side when I am pursuing my career and such, but I hope to stay faithful to you guys and to my goals.

The reason all of this is coming up is that last night I started thinking about all the things I wouldn’t have done had the world ended. I mean, yeah, I may have played with young lions, nursed a baby tiger, survived a fatal illness, crept over the border into Canada, killed a man, stolen a Porsche, Hijacked a Plane, Shot Heroin and traveled over 15 states, but there is so much more to do.

There are so many experiences to be had. It may be a small world, but there are more experiences than I could accomplish in twenty lifetimes. I still want to do as much as I can to reach those goals. I know it’s going to be a difficult start. I’ve seen that from the hard work I’ve put into this blog, but I’ve benefited on an emotional level just by writing, along with meeting some awesome people along the way.

This feels like a mini-home to me, and I’m sorry I’ve been gone on vacation for a few days. The good news is that my Youtube Channel is doing better than I thought it would as a start-up. Already, I have 36 Subscribers and over 2,500 video views. I thank you guys for that. I have also made nearly twenty dollars just from being myself and goofing off on camera, which is a really great feeling.

I mean, being rewarded for being yourself; best feeling in the world.

So, the world may not have gone out with a bang, but I hear quite a few people got end-of-the-world sympathy shags, and hey, that only happens three times a decade or so, so congratulations to those who accomplished that goal. To those who missed out on that opportunity; I know how you feel. So many things I could have done before the world ended simply because the world was ending…just squandered.

Anyway, I should wrap this up, as I have three more episodes to watch in the first season of My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic. Before I depart, I would like to tip my hat to BBC once again, as I have recently finished watching Misfits, and found it to be tip-top quality work. It joins the ranks of Doctor Who, Sherlock Holmes, and Top Gear in my mind.

Here is the latest video, by the way:

Bronies, Doomsday, and Shout-outs.

Every Thursday will be a Shout-Out day, so if you want your name or blog link or anything on my channel, just shoot me a message before next Thursday and shit will go down.

Question of the Day: If the world had ended, what would have been your deepest regret? Or, a lighter question: How do you imagine the world would have ended? Big bang? Massive flooding? Let me know.

Love ya!

The Big One

Ohh the excitement of being almost there. Yes, dears, I am one follower away from the big one-hundred, right before the world ends. It’s super exciting, and I’m sorry for getting all worked up about this, but I am just happier than 90% of people who watched the Hobbit opening night were as they left the movie theater.

HELLO! What has been going on, dears? I know it’s been a tiny bit since an actual blog post, but have no fear, Telea the Great Blog Poster is here! Or something along those lines, if you remove great and add…an expletive.

I was up all night last night writing love letters and watching Misfits, which is my current new favorite show until the new episodes of How I Met Your Mother come out. I started watching it a few days ago and I am just finishing up with season two. This may seem impressive, but truly, each season so far has been less than eight episodes at like, 50 minutes each, so I’m only wasting a medium portion of my life, rather than a sizable chunk.

I have a huge crush on all three of the main guys, though somehow, through all of his creepiness, Simon is my number one man.

Moooving on. It was definitely an eventful weekend and I am now back to the grind in the least holiday spirit ever in order to finish all of my classes on time. It’s a lot of work to do, and at this point, I feel like shit for slacking. Now I have to play catch-up in order to graduate, and it’s a whole ton of stress.

And you guys know what I do when I’m stressed out. I put things off. Which alleviates the stress for the first few days and then has a tendency to completely ruin my life. So, that’s incredibly sad for me.

Today, I plan on turning in four assignments for each of my three classes, and then I’m going to post a video and then probably either sleep or continue sucking my brain out watching Misfits.

Question of the Day: What’s a show that really got you hooked?

Love ya!

Going Places

Ahoi there, fellow Satanists. Sorry this post is so late/early. A lot has happened since we last spoke. First off, I didn’t go to bed until really late/early on Saturday night, which resulted in me waking up at 1 pm Sunday.

Then I had to get ready to go really fast and didn’t quite have time for the wondrous thing that most people call the internet, so instead I grabbed my trusty flip-cam and decided to film my day, which you can find in the included video.

I hope you all had fantastic days, and remember to tell me what you think I should post about.

Question of the day: What is the most delicious thing you ingested in the last 72 hours?

Love Ya!

Romantic Things to Say to Youtubers

Okay, I’m sorry again for not having anything legitimate to say. I guess I’m just in a terrible writing slump. I feel like a cad for doing this to you, but I guess I have become a little more invested in the videos because, though they’re worse than most of my blog posts, I’ll be making money off of them.

Again, I’m sorry if they’re not what you like to see, it’s just that I am a very broke high schooler with all of these dreams that require money. So if you could still support me and watch the videos/click on the ads etc, that would be really stupendous of you.

As I said in the video, I didn’t go to the Dance competition…I just stayed home and slept all day and now am watching Misfits.

I really desperately need a snuggle and I am in a terrible mood.

Question of the day: What would you like me to talk about, whether in a video or a blog post?

Love ya!

The Making of Money From Being Idiotic

Hello, fellow Satanists! I’m so sorry I haven’t blogged of late (at least, not real blogging). First of all, I would like to thank you guys! I am two followers away from the big 100! You know, that day when you know you’re almost as popular as you are in real life. Okay, so it’s just a big thing for me.

The second piece of big news is that my Youtube channel has officially, as of today, made me money. Wanna hear the amount of money? It’s a ridiculous sum.


So if you were one of those amazing people who went on my channel, viewed my videos, and clicked on ads, I need to thank you. I know it’s not that much money so far, but just knowing that I’ve made money off of something I really enjoy…that’s fantastic!

Anyway, a brief update on my life is as follows! I’ve had a lot of video ideas of late, but all of them are time-consuming, so I’m doing what I can to shoot video clips for now, and then later uploading them. A couple of them are things that need recording over a series of weeks, which is crazy and I don’t know why I’m doing it, but I guess I’ve already gotten myself into it.

Tomorrow I am going to a dance competition (yes, there will be a video of that) for high schoolers. I, as I’ve mentioned before, am the dance team manager for my old school, and I just do make-up, help with costumes, and carry stuff. 

It’s a decent gig, and it at least gets me out of the house and interacting with other people. Lover was going to come with me tomorrow as she is another one of the managers, but she has other plans, so I will be doing everything on my own, which will be a lot of work.

Tonight, my plans are to finish shooting on one of my videos and begin editing it. Don’t expect that particular video to be around for a while. If you are one of my followers who does not like watching my vlogs and other videos, that’s fine. Thank you still being my dear Satanistic friend and sticking by me.

Today I got my first letter from a Pen Pal! His name is David and he lives in Brooklyn. He sent me a short card with three pictures of Brooklyn than he had taken. It was really cool to get a letter and I am going to write one back tonight.

I still have a bunch of love letters to write, and am lacking in romantic inspiration! Ugh, go me, being such a flake. I’m working on it, though. I’ve sent a total of 18 love letters to people, with 14 of them being absolute strangers.

I’ve sent letters to people in Italy, France, Turkey, Australia, and Britain. It feels to cool to have a global reach like that.

My question of the day is: If you could make money off of doing anything, what would do you?

Love ya!