Today, I woke up early. I took care of all of my mother’s animals, hung laundry out, and weeded in the garden. It was my first step towards making a decision and being proactive.
Tomorrow, I stop eating sugars, other than the natural ones that occur in fruit. I also stop eating chicken, ham, and pork chops. I’m whittling down my meat diet until I reach vegetarianism. I want to start making healthy choices for me.
Tomorrow, I start working out again. I want to feel fitter, to be better. I know this sounds like the same old thing from the same old teenage girl, but the fact is that these are steps to organize my life in order to figure it out. I know it’s not the best routine, to control things in order to figure other things out, but it’s something.
Tomorrow. Tomorrow. Do you ever have that feeling that tomorrow is never going to come? I’m working on staying as positive as this blog makes me sound. I am a cheerful chipmunk! I am a ecstatic elephant. I am a happy human. That’s what it is. I need to stay positive.
So, tomorrow it starts. Tomorrow, everything starts. My life, which has felt slightly empty and incomplete starts tomorrow.
How do I know? Because something impossible happened. Something that feels like my entire life is changed. My entire direction has be waved just a little bit to the right.
I think I’m alone. That’s what happened. I am alone here. I am prepared to not be alone anymore. I’m ready to move on. Don’t worry, my blog will be pretty normal in the next few days, this is just a transition.
After all, I’ll be eighteen in just a few short weeks. I’ll be an adult.