I’ve been thinking a lot about growing up. I mean, I’m seventeen years old. I’m almost ready to go out and take life by the horns and make myself a career. I’m almost ready to face my fears and conquer them. But really, I’m not. I have no idea what to do. I’ve been inspired a thousand times and my dreams have been crushed a thousand-fold.
So, what do I do? I don’t. But I’ve been learning so many lessons, been discovering so many things.
Lesson one: Growing up isn’t about forgetting who you were, it’s about finding who you are.
Lesson two: Growing up isn’t about mourning the things you’ve lost, it’s about celebrating the things you’ve found.
Lesson three: Growing up isn’t about just learning lessons, it’s about applying them to your every day life.
There’s so many things I’ve learned, but I have trouble actually paying attention to my own advice. I can get so wrapped up in something that I’ll break my own heart. It can be an inspiration, or a crush, or just a risk I decided to take once day that ended up making me crawl into bed at night, hurting as if someone had punched me in the heart.
I’m not saying I’m the only one like this. Of course not. We’re hormonal teenagers, we’re young, and unwise. Well, I’m told I’m wise, but I can’t believe it myself sometimes. I know a lot, and I have a lot of common sense, but again, it’s not what you have, it’s what you apply.
Admittedly, I’m just scared about everything. Why shouldn’t I be? It’s my whole life that I’m supposed to plan even before I know how to make the right decisions. In High School, they’re trying to prepare us for the world, but the truth is, we’re not. We’re not even ready to get prepared. Even those people who have everything planned from day one are terrified. We’re supposed to graduated high school and go straight to college, already having made all the difficult decisions like:
WHAT AM I GOING TO DEVOTE MY ENTIRE LIFE TO?!
I’m scared. I’m terrified. But I’m not going to let that stop be.
Lesson four: Growing up isn’t about running from your past, it’s about running to your future.
I’m ready, even if I’m not really ready at all. Are you?
“The trouble with the world is that the stupid are cocksure and the intelligent are full of doubt.”
– Berntrand Russell